My "Interview"

I don't know if this is a blogging thing like the 100 List but I am being "interviewed" by my fellow internet buddy, Underachiever (or Undr). This is his site, http://underachieverscorner.blogspot.com/

Here are my 5 interview questions...

1. What would you say was a defining moment in your life?
when i finally came to terms with my dysfunctional family and highly alcoholic dad

2. Have you ever mooned someone?
ha. i don't think so.

edit (next day): i have thought about it and i don't think i ever have but i wasn't 100 percent confident in my answer.

3. What is a dirty secret that would probably disqualify you to be a candidate for the presidency of the U.S.?
maybe too many drugs? but that'll still get you the Presidencey. um, that's a tough one, there's not much that'll keep you out of office these days.

edit (next day): flashing my boobs on 3 out of 6 trips to New Orleans maybe

4. What is your favorite store in the mall that you don't buy a thing from?
Hello Kitty probably. i love that store. i used to buy things there when i was little. too old for it now. i think their stuff is so cute.

edit (next day): the jewelry store where they have wedding rings. i am not materialsitic but the nice big diamond rings always catch my eye and i sometimes dream that i'll have a nice rock on my hand one day. but you see, in reality i don't want that (i want something nice but modest), i just like to fantasize.

5. What song is playing in your head at this very moment?
"Ain't No Sunshine" by Bill Withers

edit (next day): now i am singing "Oh, Atlanta" by Alison Krauss

The End

So now I think I have to put up the offer of interviewing someone. If you are interested, leave a comment below saying "interview me". I will respond by asking you 5 questions, everyone's questions will be different. You will then post your answers in your blog. Then in conclusion, offer to interview others.

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On a different note...

Work was really slow, I only managed to make $33 tonight. How shitty is that? I gave Shawn a ride home and we smoked. It was an uneventful easy day.

I talked to my best friend who is currently in Wyoming seeing Panic. We are going to go over some dates and plan for my visit. Alison Krauss is playing at the Lyons Bluegrass Fest on July 29th. We are trying to arrange it so we can go. The only glich is that I have school orientation the day before. It'll work itself out. I'm really excited about my first real vacation in about two years.

Finally!

I have to work tomorrow but that's not the important thing. Tomorrow...IKEA opens! I can't make it tomorrow but you better bet your bottom dollar that I will get there as soon as I can.

(this is the first time i have ever been excited about a store opening, just so you know)

Blah

I, again, haven't been in a posting mood.

I am a tad bit hungover. I went out to Taco Mac last night with Chris. Chris and I worked together at the old dive bar. He bartended, I served.

I mixed beer and liquor which my head does not appreciate. Also, since I only smoke when I drink, man, I smoked almost a pack last night, it was disgusting. I drank, in this order,
margarita
Celebrator (beer)
Old Peculiar (beer)
grateful dead (mixed drink)

uuuuuggggghhhhhh i feel horrible.

We also ran into two girls that we worked with at the bar. It was good to see them and catch up. I laughed a lot.

The End. ((((((((weak)))))))) i know

The Information Is Overwhelming

So, I am reading "Under the Banner of Heaven". It is really a great book. There is so much information about the Mormon Fundamentalist sect. These people vary from the "regular" Mormons by being more extreme in their beliefs and practices...I think the biggest difference is that they practice polygamy.

I can't go into detail because I haven't quite grasped all the information myself and even the stuff I have grasped is so complicated, I have it in my head but would barely be able to discuss it. There are many Mormon sects but the biggest branch (beside the regular Mormon establishment) is the FLDS (Fundamentalist Latter Day Saints). They deny the government and it's laws and abide by only what God says to them ("the chosen ones") directly. These people cheat the government out of money (mostly welfare) out of billions of dollars. They justify this by saying that manipulating the system is how God would want it for the chosen ones. You know, most people thought we have to worry about illegal immigrants but this sect in particular are the same in number if not more and reproducing much faster (3-40 "wives" and sometimes over a hundred children per family). Most of them are not contributing to social security and most FLDS families are drawing six figure checks annually from the government through state and federal assistance.

Remember the Elizabeth Smart kidnapping from a few years ago? The Smarts were a faithful "regular" Mormon family. They hired a "will work for food" kind of guy one day to help with roof repairs and whatnot. This guy had been ousted by the Mormon church for extremist beliefs. He was an Independent FLDS (yet another sect) who had received a commandment from God to start taking on more wives. While working at the Smart's home he noticed Elizabeth. He then knew that she was to be his second wife. She was only 14 years old. He kidnapped her one night out of her bedroom. Over the next several months he had taken her as his "wife" in a spiritual ceremony only involving Elizabeth, himself, and his original wife. They hid out in homemade camps in the brush of the mountains. He brainwashed Elizabeth the whole time. She even went out in public (with a burka like veil and wig) and would be left alone sometimes for a couple hours. She never told a soul and never attempted to run away. When she was finally found by police, she denied that she was actually Elizabeth Smart, they grilled her for hours and she finally admitted it. Stockholm Syndrome at it's best, she was concerned about the future of her captures and she cried the whole time because she didn't want to leave.

here's a good Elizabeth Smart link:

http://www.agreka.com/about_elizabeth_smart_on_polygamy.htm


Polygamy is a fucked up belief system (IMHO) because it is a totally subservient lifestyle. The men don't just tell the women to clean, they tell them how to clean (ie: how to clean the inside of a milk carton). They are not allowed to have sex unless it will result in pregnancy, in essence, sex with their husband is only allowed during ovulation. If intercourse happens outside of that, God will punish them. Women are meant to keep house, reproduce and raise their children to be faithful to the church. They are beaten, raped and most are married off by the age of 13 or 14 years old. There is a lot of rape and incest going on within the families because sex is so repressed in their culture. Young girls are forced to marry older men in the society. Sometimes those men are their Uncles or Stepfathers, which sometimes can result in being one's own stepgrandmother at 15 years of age (figure that one out!).

I am so fascinated by all of this. This is all going on and so many people are unaware (including myself). The regular Mormon church looks innocent in all of this but the founder of the regular Church of Latter Day Saints, Joseph Smith, was an extreme polygamist and then the guy who took over the church, Brigham Young, was an extreme polygamist as well. The LDS eventually outlawed the practice of polygamy because the US government was so against it and outlawed it. I am a little skeptical of the Mormon church in general now. I am so curious about all the inside workings of the church that the outside world (we are known as Gentiles (even the Jews)) is not aware of.

Anyway, this post is a lot longer than I anticipated. Sorry for the book report like lesson here. I just find it all so fascinating! (Thanks for reading if you did.)

--oh and one last note--
The boyscout, Brennan Hawkins, who was just found after missing for four days in the woods...he is Mormon. You know, he could have just been missing (hey, I got lost in the mountains once too) but now I am just wondering ever so slighly if something else happened. I know he is a boy but, man, you just never know. Is something being hidden, covered up? Are we being misinformed in some way?

I really sound like one of those people that are into uncovering conspiracy theories. I think I am just paranoid about things that happen that I don't know everything about.

I've Got Nothin' Today

I have a lot on my mind but I am not willing to spill it. I am just not in the mood to describe things and explain stuff. So, yeah, nothing today. Sorry. (I know you are incredibly upset my friends)

P.S. I have a horrible potty mouth. I cuss waaay too much. "shit" has been incredibly over used as of late.

P.P.S. I have severly cut back my smoking* (as I have briefly mentioned before). I only smoke when I drink or maybe after a bowl. However, I find myself wanting to drink more just so I can justify smoking cigarettes**. The good thing is that I find myself smoking less when I drink. Instead of smoking a pack, I may smoke like 8 cigarettes. My cravings (when sober) are not as bad as I thought they would be which is great; it makes this cutting back thing much easier.

*you wonder maybe why i don't just give it all up instead of "cutting back"? well, quitting is too much pressure and then there's all that guilt associated with cheating and lying. it's the same reason i will never go on a "diet" per say.

**i have not been drinking more even though i have been wanting to for the sake of stupid cigarettes.

"My name is Joe Dirte...

...I added an e to the end, cause it sounds cool."

Cajun Man: Home is where you make it.
Joe Dirt: You like to see homos naked?
Cajun Man: No, no, home is where you make it.
Joe Dirt: Oh. (walking away) He likes to see homos naked, doesn't help me."


LOVE, love the movie "Joe Dirt". It was just on television and I think it's hilarious every single time.

And speaking of Joe Dirt. Our friend Joe Dirt called Friday on T's birthday. Joe didn't know it was T's birthday but it was a nice coincidence. He's out in Colorado living with some dude he met on STS9 tour. heh. I miss that boy. Joe is a kid from Athens that T worked with for awhile. T HATED him at first. He would come home and just rant about this boy. I forget sometimes how much he really, really disliked Joe in the beginning. Then one day I, can't remember how it happened, T and Joe became friends. The rest is history. The both of us just adore the hell out of him. Joe (his real first name, not his real last name but he is sooo like the character but even better) stayed at our place, on our den floor, for about two weeks once. I trust him and love him. He's really not the sharpest tool in the shed but he is genuine and good hearted and you just can't not be completely fond of him. He is dirty and scraggley. He is your fairly cliche tour bum but he's not like all the rest of them. There is something special about Joe, a certain innocence and vitality.

I hope to see you soon, Dirté!

Felíz Cumpliaños A Tí

Happy Birthday, T!

This year is going to bring you lots of good things.

Many, many kisses and loads of love, J


_______________Gemini Birthday Horoscope________________

By the time we get to July 17th all of your financial and security issues will be in a fairly solid place. Any last minute changes you want to make should be made before then. In July the focus will change from resources to siblings, communication and short distance travel. All three of these areas will now demand more responsibility of you. Assess them now and decide if they are in a position that makes you comfortable. Do you need a newer car? Are your travel patterns acceptable? Is your rapport with your brothers and sisters in a place where you feel you can easily deal with them? Are all the tools that relate to communications up to date and in good shape? (cell phones, computers, etc.) This is a time that relationships should take on a playful quality. You might even want to act a bit like kids for this one. As long as you make sure you share it will be a good experience. If you get greedy about the "toys" it will prove to be very disappointing. Concerning career issues...be very flexible. Some things may come at you out of left field. Your career is in an "unpredictable" phase right now. Many things are out of your control and dependent on the whims of other people. Ride the tide, go with the flow, don't fight city hall. Where you end up will probably be very different but, more than likely, with more options than you had before. Be patient and listen. For a Gemini...that's very difficult. What you want out of life should be fairly obvious at this point. There are no hidden agendas or unconscious urges that you have to contend with. Everything is on the table. The problem is more of a decision factor relative to all the options. Go through them slowly and ask yourself where will these decisions put you one year from now. That should give you a nice, solid focus to adhere to. Then, you can feel confident with your decisions.
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(from joylight.com)

Update

T is back from Bonnaroo...all in one piece. He called me Monday before work to say hello and wanted to know if I was still mad at him. I was no longer mad, I was just happy to hear his voice. We talked like crazy Monday afternoon. He said Bonnaroo has totally sold-out. That's no surprise though. He had fun nonetheless.

Anyway, blah, blah, blah. I talked to him last night and was short and rude, didn't mean to be. I guess I'll see him maybe Wednesday night, his birthday is Thursday. Whatever. I am just aggrevated at him for some reason so I don't care much I guess. I think I am aggrevated at myself the most actually and am putting it off on him. Since we have nothing concrete right now, I am just frustrated with my own actions.

My very best friend in the whole world is flying in from Colorado Thursday as well. My priority is her since I haven't seen her in 6 months. She is leaving Friday to go to her brother's wedding on Folly Beach (SC). I used to live there coincidentally. I am not invited to the wedding because it is a small family only thing. The only thing is that I will see her for a total of maybe 3 hours the whole time she is on our side of the country. Her boyfriend is coming too. I am excited about that. They have been together for 2 years and I have never met him (talked to him on the phone but it's not the same). Her first real boyfriend, real relationship and I haven't even met the guy! I'm looking forward to this. I have never seen her with a guy she actually LOVES! The anticipation is killing me.

Sunday Night

Sunday was hellacious at work. I mean Hellacious! I won't talk about it because really I have tried to block it out of my mind. I hate people. Especially people that eat in restaurants on Sundays. Anyway, that's not the point of this post.

After a miserable Sunday, my friend Robbie* and I went out. We were both cut early and decided to drink ourselves silly to forget the day. He lives in East Atlanta which is pretty far from our work and my house. I made the trek down to his area. I was rushing to get there since it was Sunday and the bars close at 12. We had two hours to drink and we needed to get on it! We went to this place called "Blake's". There was a drag show going on (oh, Robbie is gay and wanted to take me out to see the Atlanta gay nightlife). The bar was a blast and this one Tina Turner impersonator was out of this world. She(he) could shake it fast and kick those legs high! Fantastic! Great Energy. There was one guy that we were talking to that Robbie liked. The guy was totally cheesey, the orangest fakest tan ever, built body with muscleman tank top on, the cocky smile and laugh. Turns out the guy's got a great personality. He was really funny and was pretty smart. Too bad he was such a cheeseball. We were downing our vodka tonics quickly. The night was easily going by with lots of laughter and small talk.

The thing that was crazy to me was realizing girly tactics I use. I never thought that I did flirty things or looked through my eyelashes a certain way, the coy smile, shoulders back. They were unconscious behaviors (at least for me). I never realized I did those things until I was at the bar trying to get the bartender's attention and it hit me that my body language wasn't working, he's looking at the guy next to me, not little ol' me. There were many men that were very attractive but it didn't matter, they didn't want me, I was a girl.

The bar closed and for some reason the bar nextdoor, Gilbert's (gay too), served until 2 am (on a Sunday?). We decided to go. The little place was packed. We ran into some wonderful strangers. Lots of laughing and cheersing. I met a guy named Billy. If I were a gay boy I would have fallen in love. We got along like two peas in a pod. We were having the best time. We topped our evening of vodka tonics off with an apple martini (me) and a cosmo (Robbie). We were pushed out the door and headed back to Robbie's house. I stayed over because it was obvious that I was incapable of driving 30 minutes back home.

At his house we ate and talked and talked and talked. It was getting super late and we needed to sleep. We both had to work the next day. The night ended with me and Robbie in his bed. We shared stories and laughed a lot (just like junior high girls) and finally concluded it with one iPod earbud in my ear, the other in his, singing Beatles tunes.



*not his real name

Let's Get This One Outta The Way

Michael Jackson. Ick. I was at work yesterday and we were all glued to the television. Luckily we were the slowest work has ever been, so we got to stand around without interruption. The anticipation was peaking...we were waiting and waiting with big smiles on our faces knowing what a circus all of this was. The verdict was read and *GASP* he was found not guilty on every single count! What an injustice, what a fucking disgrace! Oh man, we were ranting and raving and shaking our heads. The bastard was free.

I was not really surprised that he was let go on the molestation counts. I was not surprised he was let go on the conspiring abduction counts. I was shocked to find that he was not charged with serving the "Jesus Juice" to minors. There were witnesses! For the love of all things holy! Dear Baby Jesus, what happened?!?! I honestly have no doubt in my mind that he has endangered children. Maybe not Mackully Culkin or whoever else will defend him but he has inappropriately touched someone. I mean come the fuck on.

I heard on the radio that one of the jurors didn't even speak english. I don't know for sure (and my computer is dial-up so I don't have the time to search) and this information could have been skewed. Maybe english or spanish was her second language. However, if it's true that she doesn't speak fluent english and needed a translator (paid by taxpayers) for the whole 72 days, that is just unacceptable. It was also said that one of the jurors had a family member visit the Ranch when they were younger (biased). Another juror had a son that was a recovering child molester (biased). So, again, this is all hear-say, I don't know for sure. I'll try and figure it out I guess.

And what was with the doves? The new Pope didn't even get doves.

Wasting Time

I am done with work for the night. I am getting ready to go out, actually, I am ready. I am not one to really "get ready". I am so low maintanence. Anyway, I am going out with a girlfriend from work for a couple drinks when she gets off work.

I was trying to check the Panic setlist for tonights Bonnaroo show but it has not been posted yet...the show, I assume, is still going on. Panic will probably be done soon, plus, they are an hour behind us. Since it's a festival show it will probably be a pretty typical setlist. A couple guests to sit in and what not. They play tomorrow night too.

They have a pretty great list of artists this year...(I will put *** next to my very favorites)

Alison Krauss*** (I want to be her)
Jurassic 5
Drive-ByTruckers*** (love, love, love)
Widespread Panic*** (love the old Panic, like the new Panic, this band was my passion for years)
Gov't Mule***
Allman Bros.***
The Gourds (the ones who do the bluegrass version of "Gin and Juice" which is good)
Bela Fleck (love, love, love)***
Dave Matthews (great musicians, hate the fan base and all the mainstream crap they now represent)
Sound Tribe Sector 9 (not my kind of music but they are good at what they do, I was good friends with Zach (their drummer) in high school)
Galactic
Kings of Leon
Yonder Mountain String Band
Black Crowes ***(love the Crowes and love Chris Robinson's new band "New Earth Mud", saw them open for Gov't Mule and they blew me away, Paul Stacey, the guitarist was phenominal)
Karl Denson
RJD2 (my old neighbor in Athens loved this guy, I think he's a DJ, supposed to be an excellent show)
Toots and the Maytalls (saw him in Charleston one time and it was a blast)
Bob Weir & Ratdog***
My Morning Jacket (have never seen them live but have heard one of the CDs and I thought it was really really cool)
Umphrey's McGee (BOOOO! TOTALLY overrated. I think they are so blah. I met T for the first time at this show in Athens. The fact that Relix named this band best new band of the year or whatever proves that the "jamband" scene is going straight to hell)
John Butler Trio
Earl Scruggs
Keller Williams

oh and Trey Anastasio...oooh *Trey*. (sarcasm level h i g h)

These are the more notable acts at Bonnaroo with some being super notable. I could do without a couple but I guess it doesn't matter, I'm doing without all of them b/c I am not there. I wish I wasthere, not just b/c of T but just because I love, love festivals and I love many of the above acts.

More 100 Things

Can't stop...more, more, more. I hope I don't repeat, if I do, who gives a shit, it's not a test.

1. I cuss too much.
2. I like to drink Crown on the rocks.
3. I have an addictive personality.
4. I just like to be held. haha but true.
5. I sliced my brother's finger open on accident, we were playing sword fight with kitchen knives. We were young and stupid and home alone, apparently I was taking the game more seriously than he was.
6. I used to love Britney Spears but now I think she is just a trashy whore.
7. I love chicken salad but only when my mom makes it. I despise mayonnaise and she knows just the right amount to use so I'll eat it.
8. I want a camera phone because I just think that would be fun.
9. Once a friend of mine saved me from falling of the side of a mountain.
10. Once I got lost in the woods (on a camping trip) with someone who was on crutches. We were lost for about two hours, she missed her doctor's appt. I was trying to get her to, I thought I was taking a short cut.
11. My roommate's boyfriend (and a good friend of ours) got my boyfriend and I really fucked up so they could have sex with us. We didn't but they proceeded to and well, it'a a loooong story...
12. After that incident...I freaked out, had an emotional breakdown, and alienated myself from those I was closest to for about a year.
13. I have great memories from my childhood.
14. The neighbors and I used to have talent shows when I was a kid to raise money for the local children's hospital.
15. One of my best friends ran away from home and died of a heroine OD when she was 15 years old.
16. Another friend who I grew up with died when he was 18 in a car crash on his way to college orientation.
17. I went to the Grand Canyon and thought, "Gee, it looks like all the pictures", we all then proceeded to go to the Grand Canyon bar and drink.
18. I sit on public toilet seats (usually, unless they are disgusting).
19. I secretly wish that T and I would get married but I don't think it will ever happen.
20. I once lived on Folly Beach in South Carolina with one of my best friends and then left and we were no longer friends.
21. I once lived in Blue River, Colorado with my ex boyfriend (he was my ex at the time too).
22. I love seeing plays and really really want to see "Wicked" when it comes to Atlanta next year.
23. My brother used to lock me in the basement when I was little and I would scream bloody murder because it was damp and dark and there were spiders.
24. A friend and I almost checked ourselves into a mental institute in Littleton, CO once, seriously.
25. I have slept in my car on a few occasions.
26. One of my dreams is to go camping by myself but I am kind of scared plus my tent was stolen.
27. I went to the senior prom the year after I graduated high school (my boyfriend was a senior).
28. I stayed home and skipped the first year of college for my boyfriend.
29. He cheated on me that year, I had cheated myself.
30. I still have no regrets in my life, some questionable moments, but no regrets.
31. I am totally a night person.
32. I have drastically cut back on smoking and am doing well with it.
33. I used to be a huge tomboy.
34. I always wanted to be on The Real World, now I am too old to be on it. I'm not as sexual as the people that get on that show now anyway.
35. I grew up in the bar that my parent's owned for 17 years.
36. I used to be a borderline bible beater when I was younger.
37. My neighbors helped raise me and they were strict Independent Baptists, I liked it at the time.
38. I used to "go out" with an old Braves player's son.
39. My boyfriend before T was borderline metrosexual, I kinda thought he was gay.
40. I was once in a verbally (and semi physically) abusive relationship.
41. I am a Virgo through and through.
42. I am highly critical of myself but other people mostly (judgmental too) and it sucks.
43. I went into Gymboree (infant clothing store) today and imagined what I would buy if I had a baby.
44. The last thing I need is a baby.
45. I am really scared of cockroaches and most spiders.
46. Remembering what it's like to be in a good Panic lot (and hotel room) brings on a good feeling of good times had.
47. I wonder sometimes if I am bi-polar but I don't think I am.
48. I am like a sponge for knowledge.
49. I usually don't retain any of the knowledge because my memory SUCKS!
50. I once got caught by a security guard pissing in public.
51. I have never actually considered suicide.
52. I hate the show Desperate Housewives and don't get the frenzy over it, I wish it would go away forever.
53. I currently do not have any health insurance.
54. I reserved my copy of Harry Potter #6 for when it comes out July 16th.
55. I love Harry Potter but still haven't read the 5th installment.
56. I help count votes at the county courthouse during elections.
57. I have tried and tried to knit but I just can't do it and if I can't do it well, then I don't want to do it. (re:Virgo)
58. I was illiterate until 2nd grade until my teacher figured it out, then I proceeded to be the best reader in my classes from then on out.
59. I sucked my thumb until 3rd grade.
60. Madonna was my idol when I was really young...the Like A Virgin years.
61. Once I told my best friend's parents that I wanted to be a hooker when I grew up.
62. I think my mom is invincible and will be shocked to find out that she is not.
63. That day will be the saddest day of my life.
64. I freakin love hotdogs and think ketchup is a disgrace to a hotdog or hamburger.
65. I want to go to Italy so bad.
66. I also want to go on a cruise really bad.
67. I want to move back to Colorado but 1.) i have to graduate college first 2.) my mom would be too far away.
68. I wish I could play guitar but there's no chance, I have no musical ability whatsoever.
69. I played trumpet in middle school and then moved to the baritone because I sucked so bad at the trumpet. I soon quit band.
70. Once I quit band I was so happy to have woodshop and home ec., I enjoyed the hell out of those classes. I hated band.
71. When I was younger my brother cut up my tagalong Superman blankie thing to pieces with scissors.
72. Once I opened all my brother's baseball card packs for the gum, he was furious and I thought he would never forgive me. Those unopened packs could have been worth a lot of money today maybe.
73. I have freckles and love them but they are fading with age.
74. I have a weird sense of humor, it is very dry and sarcastic most of the time.
75. I love going to Braves games.
76. I bite my nails, it's a nasty habit.
77. One of my guilty pleasures is cheesey pop music.
78. I have only been to a strip club once and it was a dive with strippers the age of my mom. But I want to go back to show people that are new to town. I feel bad about wanting to exploit it because the strippers are washed up.
79. I love saying the words "excellent", "interesting" and "exactly".
80. I love words and learning word origins and learning new ones for my vocabulary.
81. I prefer to sleep naked but get weird about it at my parent's house (where I stay right now).
82. I annunciate my words really well, that's probably from working at the bookstore.
83. I have gone to church camp a couple of times and loved it.
84. I fell off a running horse one time at camp.
85. I love skiing but have never snowboarded.
86. I love walking in the snow, it is pure bliss for me.
87. I have super neat handwriting and am really organized, I would make an excellent secretary but that's not what I want to do with my life.
88. I am not a fan of chocolate except for a Milky Way or 3 Musketeers every now and again.
89. I never wear red unless it's my red shirt for work. There is not a spot of red in my wardrobe.
90. I live in the same house I was born in, my parents haven't moved since before I was born.
91. My dad is an alcoholic and it makes me sad and resentful and depressed.
92. I love, love roller coasters.
93. I love fishing.
94. I am naive about male intentions, I always think they are just being friendly like me (who has no intentions).
95. Sometimes I think I am not good enough for certain things life has to offer but I know better. It's just those damn thoughts sometimes.
96. I am good at running away from things and I have finally stopped, I think.
97. I have flashed my boobs in New Orleans more than a few times. It was always the "Hand Grenades" to blame, best drink ever. I have been there for 6 Halloweens for Panic.
98. I have seen people have sex on the side of the street in New Orleans and I watched with eyes wide open, mouth dropped and drawing a crowd near to watch with me.
99. I have been swimming in the Pacific Ocean (kind of a big deal for a Southerner).
100. I have never been arrested but I have had a couple close calls. *knock on wood*

finis

Interesting...

http://barofsoap.blogspot.com/

Definetly worth the trip...

Lunch with the Ladies

Quick Summary of my lunch today with my mom and her school friends. (my mom works at a middle school as technology head)

The ladies all arrived in perky looking summer wear, lots of bright greens, pinks, etc. There were quite a few capri pants worn. My mom has been sucked in to this whole world. She has purchased the capri pants and the bright shirts. She has started scrapbooking as well. ??? The ladies were talking about how they are excited about the Clay Aiken concert (!?!?!). You know, Clay Aiken, the American Idol runner up dude. A couple of them have paid $50+ for tickets! And then they proceeded to get all excited about the new reality show where washed up actors are in a ballroom dancing competition or something like that. It does not take them much, I swear.

My mom is cool as hell but get her around these ladies and she is...I don't even know what to call it actually. She has her other friends, her tennis friends, her best friends. They go to the lake and let loose and have fun. They are the ones that drink and laugh until they pee their pants. They cuss and don't act all middle school teacher like. I hope that makes sense. My mom loves the school and her school friends and that's cool but they are sooo lame. I don't mind a couple of them but for the most part the only thing that matters in their lives are whether their bright green fluffy flip flops match the bright green little bikes on their capri pants which should also match their feather rimmed straw purse that is "too cute".

Maybe I'm too judgmental but I just can't believe that these flamingos are let out of the mental institute.

I was dying laughing inside all throughout lunch. Man, I wish I was a good storyteller.

Pictures

On SheWalks, Kristi was saying she loves blogstalking because she likes to take peeks into people's lives. She is nosey. I completely understand. So, this post is for the people that are nosey like me, I thought I'd share...

I decided to take a couple pics and also share what I currently have on my camera. They're not exciting or anything but it'll give you a little taste of what is around me.

I should use my camera more often. Give me a mission, what do you want to see? I'll take a pic and post it.

T is painting this house (it's his dad's rental house), i helped one day. that's my car in the driveway. 

this is a blurry picture of me and my mom before we went to the Fox Theatre. we are on our deck and the pic. is blurry because my dad isn't quite sure how to work a digi. 

this is me at the atlanta dogwood festival. 

this is T in our old apartment. 

this is the view i have from my computer room window. lovely suburbia.  

this is a picture of where i do my blogging. 

this is a picture of me today, the flash is reflected in the mirror...oops. 

this is the purse i carry everyday. i have other purses but i don't use any of them, i have fallen in love with this one in particular. 

this is a picture on my wall. it is a batik by artist amos amit. i love it. i have another one i didn't photograph but it is of a music ensemble. 

this is my room at my parent's house, part of my library is in the corner. you can see my sewing machine that i hope to use one day. and boxes and crap from moving. 

Anxiously Awaiting

Preface- this post is a little long and it's regarding some stupid personal BS. However, I have this blog as a journal for myself and it's kinda like therapy. So, read if you like but don't blame me if you're not entertained. Not that my other posts are entertaining but you know what I mean.

Okay, so T and I got into a fight. It was over the phone and it was just a war of words really, there wasn't a point to the fight that I can rememeber. Oh, I was upset about something that was big to me but trivial to everyone else (regarding our landlord). I called him so he could console me. Instead he told me that it was stupid that I was upset over this issue. That made me more upset and I hung up. The next day is when I yelled at him for being insensitive and selfish (which he very rarely is) and he told me I was too sensitive, etc. I won't play out the conversation but that's the jist.

So, I never called him. And I never heard back from him. The thing is though, my cell phone fucked up two nighhts ago and for almost all of yesterday. I didn't realize it until yetserday evening when my mom pointed out she had been calling all day and I didn't answer. So I really don't know if T ever tried to call or not. Well, I called his house this morning just to see if he'd answer and I would ask if he had tried to call.

I called and his mom answered the phone and told me that T was at Bonnaroo*. T had been debating or not whether to go and was usually deciding to not go. He has really been trying to save his money and be responsible. He deserves a break from all of his hard work. Plus, his birthday is next week so he definetly should be there. But I am digressing from my frustration. I guess my frustration is that I probably won't talk to him until Monday or Tuesday when he gets back. I'm jealous because I wanted to go to Bonnaroo but just couldn't afford it in the end (and I can afford it more than he can). And my biggest concern is that he is at Bonnaroo and we are not officially together. That freaks me out and makes me nervous. He will be partying like crazy** with all kinds of people and anything could happen. And he left for Bonnaroo while we were in a fight. That is the perfect ingredient for debauchery, disaster, who knows what.

Whatever happens here in the end, we won't know until he gets back. If he comes back and tells me he has ugh, shared himself with some girl, ugh, I think I will draw the line and tell him we can no longer be "friends". Ahhh, just the thought makes me so sad. I can't deal with that. It'd be nice if he called me from the festival but there are a zillion people and rarely anyone can get a cell reception, so I'm not even waiting on a call.

So until, lord, like 3 days from now I will be anxiously wondering what is going on at Bonnaroo.

To distract myself today, I am going to lunch at Frontera with my mom and her ladies from school. Then I'll go to the mall to return some lip conditioning stuff from MAC and some stupid sunglasses I bought and then later that day regretted. I will be working all weekend so I'll be fine. But when it comes down to it, I am sad because I don't ever not talk to T this long and the same goes for seeing him. I was ready for us to resolve things so we could hang out. I miss him. A lot.

*Bonnaroo is a huge, huge 3 day music festival in Tennessee, the fest. is 3 hours from here. I went the first year, I think the fest. is in it's 4th year. T went to the 2nd one and it was on his birthday, I still shutter at all the crazy memories he has shared with me from that experience.
**Believe me, T knows how to party, I don't have to include details. Luckily he doesn't party now like he did when he went to Bonnaroo but I am still nervous. I am no freakin angel myself but T makes me look like a goody-two-shoes.

Grilling Out

We have received our new grill! We grilled out this evening and it was yummy, yummy! Steak, corn on the cob, zucchini, squash, red pepper and new potatoes...all grilled and a caesar salad to boot. Delish!

The next order of business for grilling is going to the DeKalb Farmer's Market to get a great filet, lobster tails, fresh vegetables...mmm,mmm,mmm!

I wish I could take pictures of the farmer's market for y'all. It is such a kick ass place to go. It is beautiful with all the produce, seafood, etc. There are so many exotic foods and people there. Unfortunately, no cameras are allowed in the building.

check them out at www.dekalbfarmersmarket.com

a grilling feast 

the new grill. again, tilt your head. 

True Life

I am naive but not that naive. I have seen a lot, however, I was shocked to find out what goes on in this town where I live.

I went to this bar last night. It is a huge bar. I have only been one time before and it was dead and boring. So, to my surprise, last night, this place was packed. We walked in and I thought to myself, "so this is where all the young people in this town go". But I'm not talking just the young crowd, these are like the cheesey young people. They were sitting on the bar and on each other's shoulders, they were hootin and hollerin. The attention was on the huge stage where there was a bikini contest going on. A bikini contest. In a bar, not even at the beach. In a bar. Maybe this isn't surprising to some but for me, I was very very surprised. I stood there just staring, trying to figure it all out. I'm sure my jaw was dropped. There was this girl on stage shaking her ass really fast. She looked like she was auditioning for a rap video. There were other girls in bikinis dancing around and shaking their boobs. The crowd was going wild. Where did these girls come from? Who are these people? The winner gets a $100 bar tab. Not even cash. So these girls are doing it for the attention I guess. This happens every Wednesday night. It totally felt like an MTV True Life episode..."True Life: I Enter Bikini Contests For Money". It was just that type of atmosphere...it was just a lifestyle of young people that I am not familiar with.

I am still young, don't get me wrong but I have never hung out with people like that. It was fun to watch, especially for a big people watcher like myself and the girl I liked the best won the contest. The night ended well. I was with the same friend who I saw the bar fight with, so it was good company and quite the bar experience.

Two More Books

I bought these books yesterday as well, thought I would share. I am currently reading "The Dollmaker"...oooh, and a good one called "So You Want To Be A Sexy Bitch"...it's really funny and insightful, it's about sex and being sexy.

I liked one of his other books. This one is something about Mormon brothers killing for God. Sounds exciting! heh. 

Love Chuck Palahniuk, heard this one was goood! 

IKEA

Coming Soon!

I am so freakin excited!!! My mom and I are waiting patiently for the grand opening. My brother is coming home the time the store opens so I don't think we'll be there for the grand opening but I'll be loading up a buggy with all kinds of fun stuff soon after.

I am so glad they are coming to Atlanta before I move. This way, I can get furnishings for my apartment at an affordable price. I'll report back with all my purchases. (It'll be the beginning of July though)

Three New Purchases!

I love Borders! I used to work there for about 4 years collectively (Athens and Lithonia, GA and Dillon, CO) I am out of control when I go in there alone. When I have no one to control my purchasing power, I am in trouble.

I have been twice in the last week (by myself). The first time I went for myself. The second visit was for Father's Day, T's Birthday, and Laura's graduation (and me again).

Here are a couple items I purchased for myself...

I can't flip the pictures vertical so just tilt your head I guess. I also don't know if the pictures actually showed up in the post or below but whatever.

This is the book that will get me sewing on my machine. goal: to learn how to use my machine before school starts. 

"Friday Night In San Francisco" I bought my new favorite music (see other post) 

The Dollmaker by Arnow